It's 10:48.
I went to bed after consuming a huge Cafe Rio pork salad for dinner as a "last hurrah" before we embark on our healthy lifestyle tomorrow. Who has a salad as their last hurrah, I ask you? Let's just keep in mind how huge and tasty those bad boys are, alright?
I went to bed at 8:20. Woke up at 10 when the tall, dark, & handsome man wandered in and now I can't seem to sleep. So I'll share my sleepless thoughts with you instead....
It's now 10:53.
Let's just dive into my thoughts regarding picture taking:
PROFESSIONALLY: to be honest, I'm feeling less than true to myself and my style. I feel like I know what my style is, what I have an eye for, where my strengths & weaknesses lie, and the extent of my knowledge. I just don't feel I am taking MY kind of pictures and I've got to find a way to change that. It's kind of hard trying to be business minded about something & yet be true to yourself at the same time. You have to take into account the client's demand & expectations and also try & turn something out that makes your heart sing. Hmmmm. There will probably be more on that later.
PERSONALLY: I don't take that many pictures and here are the honest to goodness reasons why. Most of the time I don't forget my camera. Most of the time I make a conscious decision to leave it home when we go to do anything, big or small, in our lives. I'm afraid of coming across to people as being all up in their face about what I do. You know that type...I'm not a fan and don't ever want to come across that way about anything. And I don't want to spend the whole evening chit chatting with someone about my camera. I want to just live my blasted life, you know? Not to even mention the fact that I blow through a 4 GB card like it's a warm-up. AND I feel this ridiculous p-r-e-s-s-u-r-e to have my pictures look above average on my blog because that is in fact what I do. Do you even realize how many cute little snippets I leave off because of that feeling? That's just plain silly, but true. I feel like a plumber with a couple of rusty leaky pipes in my own house offering to take care of yours for you.
That may be something that only makes sense to a person in my position at 11:17 at night.
Plus, there's always the issue of where to set the thing down. Do I trust that it's going to be fine up on that counter or do I wear it around me all day & night and end up looking like a non-stop tourist or worse yet, increasing the odds of it being subject to one of my tripping mishaps? I'm really not the most graceful of girls.
These are my thoughts at 11:07 p.m. with my husband snoozing in the bed beside me.
Everyone has that person in their family that documents things. I think when it comes right down to it we're all really grateful that person does so. I know I am. I'm always thinking "Gosh, I hope I get copies of that." Well, I may have come upon a resolution for myself this year. And let's just clear something up. I'm not really a new year's resolution kind of girl. Goals kind of end up being the very things that do me in.
For example: last year I set a goal to run a half marathon. I picked a date, paid for a race, trained for it, even with a blasted sprained ankle, and ran and LOVED running it. I completed that thing and feltgreat fantastic. That was in July. I ran probably a total of 4 times since. What the heck?!?! It's like I get into my mind what I want to accomplish and then even if it would be great to adapt into my normal routine, once I've hit the goal point, I feel "done" and therefore that is
A little lame. However, all hope is not lost. I also decided to floss more last year and guess who didn't have a single cavity in 2011? Moi! So maybe I can do this....holy "lead up," oh my. I'm going to take pictures of what I do in my life. And you're going to see them. And I'm going to figure out a way to make my business more "me" than it currently is.
I also want to start a separate blog devoted to my health. Now YOU try to sleep after hearing that. :) Don't worry, you won't have to wait too long, I'll get that up running tomorrow.
And tomorrow is only about 7 minutes away. And now I'm finally feeling tired....
I went to bed after consuming a huge Cafe Rio pork salad for dinner as a "last hurrah" before we embark on our healthy lifestyle tomorrow. Who has a salad as their last hurrah, I ask you? Let's just keep in mind how huge and tasty those bad boys are, alright?
I went to bed at 8:20. Woke up at 10 when the tall, dark, & handsome man wandered in and now I can't seem to sleep. So I'll share my sleepless thoughts with you instead....
It's now 10:53.
Let's just dive into my thoughts regarding picture taking:
PROFESSIONALLY: to be honest, I'm feeling less than true to myself and my style. I feel like I know what my style is, what I have an eye for, where my strengths & weaknesses lie, and the extent of my knowledge. I just don't feel I am taking MY kind of pictures and I've got to find a way to change that. It's kind of hard trying to be business minded about something & yet be true to yourself at the same time. You have to take into account the client's demand & expectations and also try & turn something out that makes your heart sing. Hmmmm. There will probably be more on that later.
PERSONALLY: I don't take that many pictures and here are the honest to goodness reasons why. Most of the time I don't forget my camera. Most of the time I make a conscious decision to leave it home when we go to do anything, big or small, in our lives. I'm afraid of coming across to people as being all up in their face about what I do. You know that type...I'm not a fan and don't ever want to come across that way about anything. And I don't want to spend the whole evening chit chatting with someone about my camera. I want to just live my blasted life, you know? Not to even mention the fact that I blow through a 4 GB card like it's a warm-up. AND I feel this ridiculous p-r-e-s-s-u-r-e to have my pictures look above average on my blog because that is in fact what I do. Do you even realize how many cute little snippets I leave off because of that feeling? That's just plain silly, but true. I feel like a plumber with a couple of rusty leaky pipes in my own house offering to take care of yours for you.
That may be something that only makes sense to a person in my position at 11:17 at night.
Plus, there's always the issue of where to set the thing down. Do I trust that it's going to be fine up on that counter or do I wear it around me all day & night and end up looking like a non-stop tourist or worse yet, increasing the odds of it being subject to one of my tripping mishaps? I'm really not the most graceful of girls.
These are my thoughts at 11:07 p.m. with my husband snoozing in the bed beside me.
Everyone has that person in their family that documents things. I think when it comes right down to it we're all really grateful that person does so. I know I am. I'm always thinking "Gosh, I hope I get copies of that." Well, I may have come upon a resolution for myself this year. And let's just clear something up. I'm not really a new year's resolution kind of girl. Goals kind of end up being the very things that do me in.
For example: last year I set a goal to run a half marathon. I picked a date, paid for a race, trained for it, even with a blasted sprained ankle, and ran and LOVED running it. I completed that thing and felt
-THE END-
A little lame. However, all hope is not lost. I also decided to floss more last year and guess who didn't have a single cavity in 2011? Moi! So maybe I can do this....holy "lead up," oh my. I'm going to take pictures of what I do in my life. And you're going to see them. And I'm going to figure out a way to make my business more "me" than it currently is.
I also want to start a separate blog devoted to my health. Now YOU try to sleep after hearing that. :) Don't worry, you won't have to wait too long, I'll get that up running tomorrow.
And tomorrow is only about 7 minutes away. And now I'm finally feeling tired....
3 comments:
You've nailed the dilemma inside every artist with this post. I would love to sell art but I don't know if anyone will buy what comes from my heart. In fact, some of the stuff that I freaking love that I've made I know other people hate. So how are you supposed to make money that way? But who wants to make art just to sell? Its like selling your soul. The thing is every famous artist did something different. They took a chance. So I say do what you want and I bet there will be a group that loves it and wants it. Good luck!
Thank you Amy!! That means a lot to me that you wrote that. I want to see the work that you love and others hate. Specifics. Love you!
I love this. Good for you!!! And by the way I haven't forgotten that you want me to paint you a picture and I vow to get it done soon now that the holiDAZE is over. Love ya. And can't wait for the healthy blog, too. What are these changes? I need specifics. For example, what are you making for dinner?
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